2 Dec 2012

Xin , Chee.
Wan Teng, Hui Si, Li Theng, Jian Ping, Xue Hui, Enna, Sin Yun, Sin Di

Dont really have the mood to celebrate birthday, especially when on the way back to UKM><
T__T
They asked me want a birthday cake or not. Im just so surprised with my own answer, "erm, nvm la. Next time bah .. "
Parents treat me a meal at Windmill Restaurant, JJ.

burdens burden me , and I just not good to my parents. Little tempered.

The maturity of 20 brings me to a more deeper world, which much and more of considerations are needed in each thing and case.

I want heels, handbag, phone, notebook, camera, orthodontics, and many more else. But do I really need this?

Speechless, but just emotional. What of me ??

3rd Midsem break (Nov '12)

It happened to me once again where my Waipo come to make me accompany when my parents were away for a trip. They were in Beijing this time. They left on Thursday afternoon, where my sem break started on Friday (after my classes). I managed to back home safely by CK Lim's car.

here is the menu out the week:
fri N : self cook mee sua ( corn + 3 slices vegetables + ginger + pepper + ikan bilis )
sat L : Zhang (ready make; from refrigerator)
sat N : chee house
sun L : chicken rice by ahgirl
sun N : chicken rice (left) + mee sua ( sausage, egg, vegetables)
mon L+N : chicken (mummy's cook) , vegetables (fan shu ye)
tue L : fish + vegetables (fan shu ye)

For breakfast, mostly we eat biscuits or bread. And, two days of sweet potato.

As a conclusion, it is not a very tough job to deal with cooking. Anyhow, it is a time consuming process.
And, I knew I can cook.

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Why there are young generations that always disobey their own parents ?
At this age, 20, I can think, who is right and what is the right. But will my right thinking reflected when I grow up? Is it possible for wise man to be unwise? Or it is the difficulties of make apology (once we are wrong) when people grows older and older? is the matter of Dignity?

Waipo is one of the strong women that I ever met in life. The success of her to bring up the whole family during the most difficult time. Her way of living, attitudes and thinking aspired me so much. She is uneducated person, but she managed to educate her children so successfully.
Her old-age life is so upset. She cried. When her first great-grandson was born, she was overjoy but at the same time, she was pacing over a decision, "when to see the baby by my own eyes?"

见。

见了又离，
心底矣痛。
再见？苦也！

步步惊心

A nice drama. haha :D
the songs of this drama,
《一念执着》 主题曲 胡歌、阿兰·达瓦卓玛 
《三寸天堂》 片尾曲 严艺丹 
《等你的季节》 插曲 刘诗诗 

我不杀伯仁，伯仁却因我而死。
p/s: the 4th drama for my holiday. Aduhh.. =.=]

EDMAT-34

EDMAT, short for Engineering Development, Motivation And Awareness Training . It is a motivation camp organized annually by Engineering Society of University of Malaya (PKUM). The camp will be held for 7 days which involves all the undergraduates from universities in LOCAL AND OVERSEAS.

out of so many talks, I like MR VINCENT HOR's the most !! Seriously, not only me the one who feel this, but for most people, I doubt. his talk was fun and cheerful. remembered : "BMW HOR" ; "any question x2 ?, no ques? good ! " ; "Pizza Hut Delivery"

For games, my group tried our best, but still we lost all the games. HAHA, seem we are not strong enough. Some of the games are really nice, but our energy level keep reducing when approaching the end of the stations.

Rani, Rini, Hanik, Banu (indonesians) , Weng Kuen, Thiru , Danial and me form the team 4 : The Syllicon ~

Eric, our group's committee.

I get closer with Lye, my KMJ kuliah mate. We chat a lots here compared to 10 months KMJ. Get to know each other better. I'm just surprised of the word "friendships" , which I never feel before. How strong is it.

Our visit to Tanjung Bin Power Plant at Pontian was such a regret for us. How we wish we could reach there earlier, so that we could pay visit to the plant area instead of attend the talk. Anyhow, thank god as we back to UM safely at 1++am.

Also, we visited Yakult, and Royal Selangor.

thanks a lot for photographer, Zi Zhen Loo.

Edmat-34, indeed a nice camp. * Super !

p/s : Am I wrong? Lots of friends (boy) asking me will my bf eat cuka when I take photo with them. lye told the same thing. I replied "erm, still okay bah ".  

think a lots last night, Im conscious, I knew those who standing beside me are only my friends. They are friends of boy to me, but they are not my boy friend.

I am sorry, Chee. For hurting your feeling.

UKM first year holiday

27th june, I declared : 2++ months holidays began!

here is my pace:

1. EDMAT-34 at UM , 6-days camp.

2. Malacca 4 days and 3 nights, with Dim Sum, Chicken rice ball, satay kajang. 

3. Hui Huang 's 装橱 + sushi king

4. Huang's buffet dinner + wedding day + lunch ceremony

5. birthday dinner with Chee's mum at Tanjung Sepat
6. Chun's + Sonia's + Chee' mum birthday. Centro bah kut teh + sushi king eating.
     Dinner : Zhi Hun Geng + Fried He Ko
7. 3am for London 2012 Olympic Games Opening ceremony.
8. sushi bread making in the morning, L C W vs LIN DAN in the evening. LD won his second gold medal    for olympics.
9. 6 days of family trip, to Chiang Rai, Chiang Mai, Myammar, Loas. Not that happy as expected.
10. Dearest brother home coming - 14th August
11. Big kor kor's home again - 20th Monday wee hours, Lim teh with smkbb girls, McD
12. Malacca 2 days staying. Visit for her,again. 3 of us, the main purpose.前世
      mahkota parade, Nadeja Cafe, Layers cakes. + Biji rice
13. 31st aug( lunar - 7half months) praying for ah gong. Mum's cooking :))
14. Hatyai 2 days visit's. Ahma home going.
15. Malacca praying event. Back to UKM. 

p/s :
movies : Da Chang Jin, Xuan Yuan Jian, Kiss again 2..
upset : none of a family photo was taken T_T

study week at UKM

this is the second sem's study week. I chose to stay at my hostel rather than at my sweet home. My mum was upset with my decision. She would like me to stay at home. She prepared chickens, and lots of food, waiting for me to go home. She willing to be busier, more tired as long as she got the chance to be with me.

I'm sorry.

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Used to online only little time compare to normal days. Got shock, few days when I online.

First, not quarrel, but something same with quarrel. It is "turning point" between me and felo.
second, the quarrel in Fac Night Group at FB. Alvin comes out with word "SamSeng!!" , I'm disappointed with his attitude. JKMB's dai lou, dai gai jie..
Third, Xin couldn't get his visa problem solved. He could only come back from 14-8 to 17-9. T_T Chun's convo is the next day of his flight.
Fourth, the china trip is cancelled.

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KE Qing, new malaysia Artist, her song : "rang wo die dao".

~ ~ ~

IF LOVE WERE ALL,
I COULD FOLLOW YOU TO THE WORLD'S END.
BUT IS LOVE THE ONLY THING?
- ANTHONY HOPE, <>

IGNORED

 

Long time again that I do not cry. I cried 3 times today. I had 3 important things today: 2 presentations (makmal electric electronic and professionalisme), 1 german oral test. Im strong enough to make sure all these speaking are done with well. Ya, I cant be perfect. There are still some improvements can be done. 

This week, I'm totally faint. The clapper project make me tired, make me brain-less. Luckily I have a partner that is highly perfect. He is especially good at circuits. He is calm, even Eng Peng has started to worry.
Been with him, I'm always in the safety zone. But, I can't improve, never ! I got all the nodes connected wrongly. The 11th lab for this semester, yet I still got wrong for the basic ! Poor me..

for german, "okay. kein probleme. Das passt Gut !"

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I got ignored. Keep being  ignored , continuously being  ignored by my partners. When I message, they no reply. (okay, let them an excuse, because my phone is always not my side too!) I call them, they did not answer. (Still excuse and forgive them, they might still in the bed even it is now 2 30pm !) I send message on facebook, they too,  ignored my messages. I'm frust, I'm worry.. Unable to get them contact is a huge problem~ !

I will never know the reasons behind the 'ignored'. I don't ask.
I cried. I can't say anything. IF I did, I will be marked "cruel". The friendships will broken immediately. Among coursemates and commates. It doesn't just a simple problem.


I did the stupid-est thing : calls 'ABie' to ask her to call her DIDI !!!!
what are the differences between point of views of a man for a woman before and after he feels interest on her?
: totally different. You can't even say a SORRY when you are late! AND you can't even say THANK YOU when you are awaken or when the whole thing doesn't get spoil ! You answered her calls in front of me yet  say nothing to me after the call. Oh DUDE, can I lie underground for that moment? please la...
(to be frank, I'm a noob, because I don't have the skills and I do not good at that particulars. So, even if you are wrong, I can't give my comments, as you will never hear into your ears.) In your eyes, only her. You will never let her cry, we know. Everyone knows. But, where is your moral? Where is the respect gone? You are clever, I admit.


Never ever ignore /hurt people just simply with your "not care"/ "not necessary". PLEASE !!
if none of us respect people, what the world would be? All us are rubbish, then.


Had lots of unpleasant memories for my first year second sem projects on LAB, Programming, German. brain-less-powerful people at least know how to respect others. Disappointed. I keep and keep being ignored.. until the moment I realized I should go far away from you, I should not stand by your sides, hear your teasing on her.

-FKAB, 25/5/2012.

p/s: JUST DON'T LIKE TO RECEIVE "NO REPLY" .
      WE ARE HUMANS.
      I'M NOT MADE OF STONES.
     :: (((((

Uneasy Day ~

I was chased by monkey.. Who are you? why you hate me? Are you my enemy last decade?
Your fierce teeth !! I HATE !! I'm scared T_T Don't bite me..Don't come near to me. And Why you want chase again after I show you my palm. 

BTW, do you understand me? why you stop for a moment after I showed you my palm?
I don't bring any food. I just wore my jacket. Bring along my handbags.

~~~

Life is Actually easy ! When there is something that would not hurt you, why should you care so much? or in other word, why should you add a hand in people's family stuff?

In this world, there is never a 'wrong' in each and specific thing. Just think of this, in your position, and in people's position, will you and him have the same thinking ? but is it only you and him in this world ?

There are of course many kind of people in this world since there are many kind of food too in our world.
I'm just normal to my family especially my own parent and siblings.
But, all the time, I never been normal to my friends and surrounding people (seniors, juniors, lecturers, working people, some relatives). I can stay in my hostel, for most of my time, even I like to have my meals (breakfast, of course, and dinner sometimes) inside my room. Not much people can stand with what I'm doing.
They said this is lifeless. Still remember a friend from KMJ, saying that, "You wake up at 5++ am ?? Does your life still have any meanings? No friends, none of human you can talk to !"
I don't know what should I reply each time I faced these questions. I'm so sure, I do not make a wrong decision about my own lifestyle.

Something called FASHION. It related to clothes, handbags, shoes, jewelleries and so on.. which personally believe that LIFESTYLE is included within.

I wish to know, at some 100 years of tomorrow, will Sun Rise at time of today's 7pm and Set at 7am of now?
Since God created humans, trees, animals, universe and ... He make sun Rise at 7am. people wakes up in the morning. but, time changes things. People started waking up at late noon, going to sleep at late morning.
While I'm on my way with the ordinary pace, people laugh, people commenting. I'm just right to be what I having now. I live no regrets !

Go ahead with your interest, make sure you know yourself what you interest with. Not by following the crowd. Of course, you can take the same steps as others, but won't until the end. Either you fail or you discover yourself something meaningful.

what I wish in the bottom of my heart

world is in peace,
healthy for all,
smooth in everything.

may family be the most emphasis,
may love be longer and forever,
may study be the hill,
may friends be accompany,
may tough be easy-way.

How could I have all this ?
I mean to have everything in the same portion,
but not either parts show its majority
while another parts goes into minority.

Times keep running, just if I could manage to balance all these.

4/3/2012

Why always Girls Type Longer than Boys ? ?

我想哭，我哭了。
NOT BECAUSE OF THE THEME SONG OF 1 LITRE OF TEARS，BUT IS MOSTLY MY WORRYNESS。I WONDER WHY SHOULD I CARE SO MUCH。

应该不是远距离的因素，可能是我们彼此的在乎。
明年的我，都不应该那么多管闲事。否则，有些事会变得更糟。

separate on 2 lands, means we cannot have the freedom to talk as we like. Time Zone is such a big difference. Ya, human has the choice to make it possible because we are human. We can overcome the obstacles. Yet, there are still many obstacles. Not saying you must sleep before 1159pm. but, at least you sleep only 3 or 4 times late in the midnight in a long period like 6 months. How best if you could have it done. I'm wrong, because I do not consider about the celebration is for first time you away from your hometown, friends and family. But, you are not right. Since tomorrow is a school day, and you know you have the earliest class in the morning. How can you over joy it? There are always exception, why must you join your friends if they are not right? I understand, I fully understand, because my family is such a weird one. We do not have much socialization. We sleep early. We stand on ourself most time. Even him, make games as his soul when he found no one could suit him in the lonely way. It is a CNY celebration, and yes you should go for it. Maybe I'm wrong again this time.


"my holidays is until 19 Feb 2012" , I told everyone this, and I got the same reply : "wow, it is long!!"
But... is it LONG ?
No. It is not.
I got my stuff need to settle. You just enroll yourself in your first semester. How busy could you are, sure I know. You seem very relax, which I think you should not to be. Anyway, you told me : "not to force to reach perfection". .. . .
But, why not we try? Give yourself a try okay? God will see your efforts, if you really work hard for it. 
I wish not to kacau you during your weekdays. Same to my sem 2, and the rest of my study session. We are not clever indeed. We will always have to rush in our works.
之前要求的忍耐，是否让你习惯了？
I'm now free le, do waiting for your time. I'm sorry because I keep watching the dramas, and do not open my laptop that often. I do not even check my facebook that frequently. When I have shower, Im thinking how If I have missed your time, and the chance to talk with you. As I told you, ''give me your time on this weekend''.
After my check, I take a long breath. luckily.. but, I should not be luckily. Why ?

hearing to the song : "Only Human", 特别想哭。。　眼睛红红的。。　

那种怕，我真的很怕。

p/s: we can handle our problem well, I believe. [^-^] 

Communications in honest way can cure our problem. 

Water Dragon 2012

tomorrow is Chinese New Year Eve. I love it, because my mum will prepare a lots of we-love-food. Only suits my family. Others will love their own family's cooking. But, I feel such sorry for mummy, she will be so painful tomorrow. She need to be the leader, prepare this, cook that, little here, much there, and bla bla bla. Everything we based on her. She need wake up early in the morning. She has a tiring body since 2 days ago. Once I'm home, then Chun's turn to be home, she started to prepare Nutritional diet for us. Thank you, mammy <3

I did not help much. Since friday, my main attention was on "1 Litre of Tears". And started from 2nd episod [total of 11 episods], I already have a continuous wet eye. I'm strong in my inner heart. But, I'm so touched. I'm so proud of her. At the same time, I agreed : "why it chose me?"

In this Japanese Drama, the girl, A ya, is a super duper strong Girl. She has sweet smile, nice hair style (I wish I could have once in my life). But, she is such unlucky. She being attacked by an illness, that is not able to save back by any medicine or operation by that time. There are lots of lots of phase that are so meaningful to world and people. One of them is (translated into english): IT IS A KIND OF HAPPINESS OF HAVING JUST A VERY NORMAL LIFE.

I am so proud of her braveness and her will of continue to be strong in her determination when risk come steps by steps, even in a harsh way. She try/nearly say Yes to failure, But SHE DID NOT! until the second she being announced to be death.
**A very well recommended drama, spend your time. Watch it, experience it. Gain the values from it, apply it and use it.


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I'm now 21 old, from chinese aspect. wow~
my new year wish :我还要是个幸福的女孩。

regard for final exam of 1st sem 1st year in ukm, I sincerely do not do well in KL1134. 35 % only I manage to answer. I leave blanks for many questions. This is my first time. Aduih. How reality will be? What is my result ?

For my love story, I'm scare. Different time zone, create a problem for us. We cannot connect each other as we like like in the past. i scare our bonds will be alter by time. Wish this not to happen, will try my best to stay with you,which I believe myself will put the efforts on you, and also believe you will put the efforts on me. Yes, I choose to believe! I choose the positive one, how about you ?

Chee's USA study trip

a date given by 4 JAN 2012, was his time to fly to Buffalo, NY, USA.

I am so regrets about my expressions of feeling. I know I can express it out on the spot, but I do not know why I do not take the action.

yes, I have done my promise to wai po that do not cry on the spot, KLIA. But, I'm weak. I actually cry it out at the moment I reach my room at kkm,as I know we are going to separate for at least 2 years..

A sudden change occur on us. I cried. You cried. Both us cried on the phone. But, we have to say ByeBye. What a sad.. T_T

anyway, I will let you Go. LEt you continue your higher education oversea. I love You, and so, I let you go. I know we will have a better life after that, Perhaps. IF our life become worse in the future, it doesn't a matter. We still have to face it. 爱你不是不让你走。。 hopefully we can be " Sotong " [strong XD] , and remember our hardship we faced together next time when we remind back our teenager pass time.

p/s : I love You, Chee.