Why always Girls Type Longer than Boys ? ?

我想哭，我哭了。
NOT BECAUSE OF THE THEME SONG OF 1 LITRE OF TEARS，BUT IS MOSTLY MY WORRYNESS。I WONDER WHY SHOULD I CARE SO MUCH。

应该不是远距离的因素，可能是我们彼此的在乎。
明年的我，都不应该那么多管闲事。否则，有些事会变得更糟。

separate on 2 lands, means we cannot have the freedom to talk as we like. Time Zone is such a big difference. Ya, human has the choice to make it possible because we are human. We can overcome the obstacles. Yet, there are still many obstacles. Not saying you must sleep before 1159pm. but, at least you sleep only 3 or 4 times late in the midnight in a long period like 6 months. How best if you could have it done. I'm wrong, because I do not consider about the celebration is for first time you away from your hometown, friends and family. But, you are not right. Since tomorrow is a school day, and you know you have the earliest class in the morning. How can you over joy it? There are always exception, why must you join your friends if they are not right? I understand, I fully understand, because my family is such a weird one. We do not have much socialization. We sleep early. We stand on ourself most time. Even him, make games as his soul when he found no one could suit him in the lonely way. It is a CNY celebration, and yes you should go for it. Maybe I'm wrong again this time.


"my holidays is until 19 Feb 2012" , I told everyone this, and I got the same reply : "wow, it is long!!"
But... is it LONG ?
No. It is not.
I got my stuff need to settle. You just enroll yourself in your first semester. How busy could you are, sure I know. You seem very relax, which I think you should not to be. Anyway, you told me : "not to force to reach perfection". .. . .
But, why not we try? Give yourself a try okay? God will see your efforts, if you really work hard for it. 
I wish not to kacau you during your weekdays. Same to my sem 2, and the rest of my study session. We are not clever indeed. We will always have to rush in our works.
之前要求的忍耐，是否让你习惯了？
I'm now free le, do waiting for your time. I'm sorry because I keep watching the dramas, and do not open my laptop that often. I do not even check my facebook that frequently. When I have shower, Im thinking how If I have missed your time, and the chance to talk with you. As I told you, ''give me your time on this weekend''.
After my check, I take a long breath. luckily.. but, I should not be luckily. Why ?

hearing to the song : "Only Human", 特别想哭。。　眼睛红红的。。　

那种怕，我真的很怕。

p/s: we can handle our problem well, I believe. [^-^] 

Communications in honest way can cure our problem. 

Water Dragon 2012

tomorrow is Chinese New Year Eve. I love it, because my mum will prepare a lots of we-love-food. Only suits my family. Others will love their own family's cooking. But, I feel such sorry for mummy, she will be so painful tomorrow. She need to be the leader, prepare this, cook that, little here, much there, and bla bla bla. Everything we based on her. She need wake up early in the morning. She has a tiring body since 2 days ago. Once I'm home, then Chun's turn to be home, she started to prepare Nutritional diet for us. Thank you, mammy <3

I did not help much. Since friday, my main attention was on "1 Litre of Tears". And started from 2nd episod [total of 11 episods], I already have a continuous wet eye. I'm strong in my inner heart. But, I'm so touched. I'm so proud of her. At the same time, I agreed : "why it chose me?"

In this Japanese Drama, the girl, A ya, is a super duper strong Girl. She has sweet smile, nice hair style (I wish I could have once in my life). But, she is such unlucky. She being attacked by an illness, that is not able to save back by any medicine or operation by that time. There are lots of lots of phase that are so meaningful to world and people. One of them is (translated into english): IT IS A KIND OF HAPPINESS OF HAVING JUST A VERY NORMAL LIFE.

I am so proud of her braveness and her will of continue to be strong in her determination when risk come steps by steps, even in a harsh way. She try/nearly say Yes to failure, But SHE DID NOT! until the second she being announced to be death.
**A very well recommended drama, spend your time. Watch it, experience it. Gain the values from it, apply it and use it.


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I'm now 21 old, from chinese aspect. wow~
my new year wish :我还要是个幸福的女孩。

regard for final exam of 1st sem 1st year in ukm, I sincerely do not do well in KL1134. 35 % only I manage to answer. I leave blanks for many questions. This is my first time. Aduih. How reality will be? What is my result ?

For my love story, I'm scare. Different time zone, create a problem for us. We cannot connect each other as we like like in the past. i scare our bonds will be alter by time. Wish this not to happen, will try my best to stay with you,which I believe myself will put the efforts on you, and also believe you will put the efforts on me. Yes, I choose to believe! I choose the positive one, how about you ?

Chee's USA study trip

a date given by 4 JAN 2012, was his time to fly to Buffalo, NY, USA.

I am so regrets about my expressions of feeling. I know I can express it out on the spot, but I do not know why I do not take the action.

yes, I have done my promise to wai po that do not cry on the spot, KLIA. But, I'm weak. I actually cry it out at the moment I reach my room at kkm,as I know we are going to separate for at least 2 years..

A sudden change occur on us. I cried. You cried. Both us cried on the phone. But, we have to say ByeBye. What a sad.. T_T

anyway, I will let you Go. LEt you continue your higher education oversea. I love You, and so, I let you go. I know we will have a better life after that, Perhaps. IF our life become worse in the future, it doesn't a matter. We still have to face it. 爱你不是不让你走。。 hopefully we can be " Sotong " [strong XD] , and remember our hardship we faced together next time when we remind back our teenager pass time.

p/s : I love You, Chee.