Emotional, FADE AWAY !

A sudden of serious CRYs ;
A sudden of big LAUGH ;
this is so called emotional.

After CNY, (another year without Xin, and the first time without Chee) then the new semester (2nd sem of 2nd year started). The weird thing was, this semester is not running anymore. Instead, " Chasing ". Weeks upcoming keep chasing weeks before. ( and now it is the 7th week, which sem break starts after the 7th week !! )

wow.. Supposedly I should be very happy due to the running time. But, in the reverse, I cried a lots, and has been wasting more time showing to public (fb =.=) that I actually miss him so so so much.

PAP-19 唐人街 was so fun ! perhaps it is mainly due to I got many gifts from MYFM ~ LOL .. It was my first experience whereby I cheers and competing with others in a crowd for answering questions in order to get the gift. HuuHH !! Thats hot and sweating ~ But, Sehr Schoen ^^

@ thank you to Kwang Yih, the always 'photographer'. He sweats more than any of us. And because of him, we could spend the 铜板 without any conscious think. 
Took what we like, Eat what we want, As long As the 铜板 is still in our hand. 


April is coming, next month will be better , no more tears , no more big laugh. Business chasing with the running time. Time to look back at my "own schedule" - repairing what the lacking. 
Countdown for another 43 days :) 

p/s : Yen Ling's father passed away, caused her another serious sadness. A real experience, She taught me not to be too late to appreciate your love ones. And, life is unpredictable. Just like NEver judge a book by its cover, we should never judge a life by its nature too. 

2 Dec 2012

Xin , Chee.
Wan Teng, Hui Si, Li Theng, Jian Ping, Xue Hui, Enna, Sin Yun, Sin Di

Dont really have the mood to celebrate birthday, especially when on the way back to UKM><
T__T
They asked me want a birthday cake or not. Im just so surprised with my own answer, "erm, nvm la. Next time bah .. "
Parents treat me a meal at Windmill Restaurant, JJ.

burdens burden me , and I just not good to my parents. Little tempered.

The maturity of 20 brings me to a more deeper world, which much and more of considerations are needed in each thing and case.

I want heels, handbag, phone, notebook, camera, orthodontics, and many more else. But do I really need this?

Speechless, but just emotional. What of me ??

3rd Midsem break (Nov '12)

It happened to me once again where my Waipo come to make me accompany when my parents were away for a trip. They were in Beijing this time. They left on Thursday afternoon, where my sem break started on Friday (after my classes). I managed to back home safely by CK Lim's car.

here is the menu out the week:
fri N : self cook mee sua ( corn + 3 slices vegetables + ginger + pepper + ikan bilis )
sat L : Zhang (ready make; from refrigerator)
sat N : chee house
sun L : chicken rice by ahgirl
sun N : chicken rice (left) + mee sua ( sausage, egg, vegetables)
mon L+N : chicken (mummy's cook) , vegetables (fan shu ye)
tue L : fish + vegetables (fan shu ye)

For breakfast, mostly we eat biscuits or bread. And, two days of sweet potato.

As a conclusion, it is not a very tough job to deal with cooking. Anyhow, it is a time consuming process.
And, I knew I can cook.

~ ~ ~

Why there are young generations that always disobey their own parents ?
At this age, 20, I can think, who is right and what is the right. But will my right thinking reflected when I grow up? Is it possible for wise man to be unwise? Or it is the difficulties of make apology (once we are wrong) when people grows older and older? is the matter of Dignity?

Waipo is one of the strong women that I ever met in life. The success of her to bring up the whole family during the most difficult time. Her way of living, attitudes and thinking aspired me so much. She is uneducated person, but she managed to educate her children so successfully.
Her old-age life is so upset. She cried. When her first great-grandson was born, she was overjoy but at the same time, she was pacing over a decision, "when to see the baby by my own eyes?"

见。

见了又离，
心底矣痛。
再见？苦也！

步步惊心

A nice drama. haha :D
the songs of this drama,
《一念执着》 主题曲 胡歌、阿兰·达瓦卓玛 
《三寸天堂》 片尾曲 严艺丹 
《等你的季节》 插曲 刘诗诗 

我不杀伯仁，伯仁却因我而死。
p/s: the 4th drama for my holiday. Aduhh.. =.=]

EDMAT-34

EDMAT, short for Engineering Development, Motivation And Awareness Training . It is a motivation camp organized annually by Engineering Society of University of Malaya (PKUM). The camp will be held for 7 days which involves all the undergraduates from universities in LOCAL AND OVERSEAS.

out of so many talks, I like MR VINCENT HOR's the most !! Seriously, not only me the one who feel this, but for most people, I doubt. his talk was fun and cheerful. remembered : "BMW HOR" ; "any question x2 ?, no ques? good ! " ; "Pizza Hut Delivery"

For games, my group tried our best, but still we lost all the games. HAHA, seem we are not strong enough. Some of the games are really nice, but our energy level keep reducing when approaching the end of the stations.

Rani, Rini, Hanik, Banu (indonesians) , Weng Kuen, Thiru , Danial and me form the team 4 : The Syllicon ~

Eric, our group's committee.

I get closer with Lye, my KMJ kuliah mate. We chat a lots here compared to 10 months KMJ. Get to know each other better. I'm just surprised of the word "friendships" , which I never feel before. How strong is it.

Our visit to Tanjung Bin Power Plant at Pontian was such a regret for us. How we wish we could reach there earlier, so that we could pay visit to the plant area instead of attend the talk. Anyhow, thank god as we back to UM safely at 1++am.

Also, we visited Yakult, and Royal Selangor.

thanks a lot for photographer, Zi Zhen Loo.

Edmat-34, indeed a nice camp. * Super !

p/s : Am I wrong? Lots of friends (boy) asking me will my bf eat cuka when I take photo with them. lye told the same thing. I replied "erm, still okay bah ".  

think a lots last night, Im conscious, I knew those who standing beside me are only my friends. They are friends of boy to me, but they are not my boy friend.

I am sorry, Chee. For hurting your feeling.

UKM first year holiday

27th june, I declared : 2++ months holidays began!

here is my pace:

1. EDMAT-34 at UM , 6-days camp.

2. Malacca 4 days and 3 nights, with Dim Sum, Chicken rice ball, satay kajang. 

3. Hui Huang 's 装橱 + sushi king

4. Huang's buffet dinner + wedding day + lunch ceremony

5. birthday dinner with Chee's mum at Tanjung Sepat
6. Chun's + Sonia's + Chee' mum birthday. Centro bah kut teh + sushi king eating.
     Dinner : Zhi Hun Geng + Fried He Ko
7. 3am for London 2012 Olympic Games Opening ceremony.
8. sushi bread making in the morning, L C W vs LIN DAN in the evening. LD won his second gold medal    for olympics.
9. 6 days of family trip, to Chiang Rai, Chiang Mai, Myammar, Loas. Not that happy as expected.
10. Dearest brother home coming - 14th August
11. Big kor kor's home again - 20th Monday wee hours, Lim teh with smkbb girls, McD
12. Malacca 2 days staying. Visit for her,again. 3 of us, the main purpose.前世
      mahkota parade, Nadeja Cafe, Layers cakes. + Biji rice
13. 31st aug( lunar - 7half months) praying for ah gong. Mum's cooking :))
14. Hatyai 2 days visit's. Ahma home going.
15. Malacca praying event. Back to UKM. 

p/s :
movies : Da Chang Jin, Xuan Yuan Jian, Kiss again 2..
upset : none of a family photo was taken T_T

study week at UKM

this is the second sem's study week. I chose to stay at my hostel rather than at my sweet home. My mum was upset with my decision. She would like me to stay at home. She prepared chickens, and lots of food, waiting for me to go home. She willing to be busier, more tired as long as she got the chance to be with me.

I'm sorry.

~ ~ ~
Used to online only little time compare to normal days. Got shock, few days when I online.

First, not quarrel, but something same with quarrel. It is "turning point" between me and felo.
second, the quarrel in Fac Night Group at FB. Alvin comes out with word "SamSeng!!" , I'm disappointed with his attitude. JKMB's dai lou, dai gai jie..
Third, Xin couldn't get his visa problem solved. He could only come back from 14-8 to 17-9. T_T Chun's convo is the next day of his flight.
Fourth, the china trip is cancelled.

~ ~ ~

KE Qing, new malaysia Artist, her song : "rang wo die dao".

~ ~ ~

IF LOVE WERE ALL,
I COULD FOLLOW YOU TO THE WORLD'S END.
BUT IS LOVE THE ONLY THING?
- ANTHONY HOPE, <>

IGNORED

 

Long time again that I do not cry. I cried 3 times today. I had 3 important things today: 2 presentations (makmal electric electronic and professionalisme), 1 german oral test. Im strong enough to make sure all these speaking are done with well. Ya, I cant be perfect. There are still some improvements can be done. 

This week, I'm totally faint. The clapper project make me tired, make me brain-less. Luckily I have a partner that is highly perfect. He is especially good at circuits. He is calm, even Eng Peng has started to worry.
Been with him, I'm always in the safety zone. But, I can't improve, never ! I got all the nodes connected wrongly. The 11th lab for this semester, yet I still got wrong for the basic ! Poor me..

for german, "okay. kein probleme. Das passt Gut !"

~ ~ ~ ~
I got ignored. Keep being  ignored , continuously being  ignored by my partners. When I message, they no reply. (okay, let them an excuse, because my phone is always not my side too!) I call them, they did not answer. (Still excuse and forgive them, they might still in the bed even it is now 2 30pm !) I send message on facebook, they too,  ignored my messages. I'm frust, I'm worry.. Unable to get them contact is a huge problem~ !

I will never know the reasons behind the 'ignored'. I don't ask.
I cried. I can't say anything. IF I did, I will be marked "cruel". The friendships will broken immediately. Among coursemates and commates. It doesn't just a simple problem.


I did the stupid-est thing : calls 'ABie' to ask her to call her DIDI !!!!
what are the differences between point of views of a man for a woman before and after he feels interest on her?
: totally different. You can't even say a SORRY when you are late! AND you can't even say THANK YOU when you are awaken or when the whole thing doesn't get spoil ! You answered her calls in front of me yet  say nothing to me after the call. Oh DUDE, can I lie underground for that moment? please la...
(to be frank, I'm a noob, because I don't have the skills and I do not good at that particulars. So, even if you are wrong, I can't give my comments, as you will never hear into your ears.) In your eyes, only her. You will never let her cry, we know. Everyone knows. But, where is your moral? Where is the respect gone? You are clever, I admit.


Never ever ignore /hurt people just simply with your "not care"/ "not necessary". PLEASE !!
if none of us respect people, what the world would be? All us are rubbish, then.


Had lots of unpleasant memories for my first year second sem projects on LAB, Programming, German. brain-less-powerful people at least know how to respect others. Disappointed. I keep and keep being ignored.. until the moment I realized I should go far away from you, I should not stand by your sides, hear your teasing on her.

-FKAB, 25/5/2012.

p/s: JUST DON'T LIKE TO RECEIVE "NO REPLY" .
      WE ARE HUMANS.
      I'M NOT MADE OF STONES.
     :: (((((